Eternal Summer: Memories of June – 001

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Packing went smoothly and the weekend got here slowly. I had been thinking about this trip day and night.

Mom drove me to the station out in the country side and dad said goodbye at 6 AM that Saturday. Before leaving he bought me a Skype time card. To keep in touch. I was going away 3 whole months. This was my opportunity, my fresh start; To be extroverted and cool and not cringy and pathetic. I could be anyone. Get myself out there. I might even try Grindr. But don’t get your hopes up. My hookups were in real life only.

Not that I had many.

In the boys scouts I had only given a BJ to one of the other boys but only because we couldn’t get with anyone ourselves. Kinda lame honestly. He left me high and dry in the middle of woods. Couldn’t even finish.

School wasn’t much different either. You could say I haven’t had my proper gay kiss or anything. There wasn’t a lot of gay people I was interested in. This might sound stereotypically gay. But I need a man with a pretty face. Most of the gays I knew at school. Didn’t bath properly and watched way too much anime. I was such a normie.

I hugged my mom goodbye as they called for last boarding on the train. I was gonna miss her but this was for us. We needed that money. I needed that money. For school for bills for everything in between. At least this way my mom could get some months off to rest.

We hugged for what seemed like forever I tried to remember her perfume. I wasn’t sure when was the last time I would see her and going away this long meant not seeing her, maybe for the last time.. I didn’t know how long until I lost her.

She was starting chemo soon.

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